One day while doing my bible study I read,"For everyone who asks receives;" Matthew 7:8. I was mad I've asked God many times to heal me and it never happened. I couldn't understand why if the Bible is true (IT IS!) then why I wasn't receiving what I asked for. At that moment I made a mental note to ask my pastor, "What the heck?"
Suddenly, very audible and clear as a bell, I heard, "Merrym, I'm right here. Why don't you ask Me?"
Shocked at the fact that I had heard it so clearly, as if someone were in the room with me (Someone was, God!) also that it never crossed my mind to ask God why. Just then I stopped reading, was very still and quiet. I just thought, "I don't get it God. Why? Why? Why?!"
His answer, though a strange one caught me by surprise. He said, "Mer, (yes, even God calls that) this is a gift." "A gift? What an awful gift!" I commented. "Yes, a GIFT! To you it may look and feel pretty cruddy. BUT to me it's a big, beautiful, wonderful gift I've given you." "What?!" I questioned. God answered, "Yes, I said beautiful. I've allowed this to happen to you, because I know and trust that you'll use it for My glory. That's why it's beautiful. Extremely beautiful!" I sat stunned while tears ran down my face.
I still ask "Why?" often. The answer is always there and the same, causing me to pause and thank God for 'my gift.'
For everyone who asks receives;
Matthew 7:8
I am blessed
Merrym Dawn Mathis Bruce
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