Monday came like an 80 mile an hour wind, way too rapidly. I had to get up and get the kids ready for school. Being unsure of what would happen to me while they were gone, they didn't want to leave me. I assured them I'd be fine (doubting all the while whether I'd be OK myself) and I'd be waiting for them at the front door when they got home. Reluctantly they shuffled on to the bus and watched me disappear through the window, with sad puppy dog eyes, until I faded from sight.
My stamina was very low back then, so after they left I laid down on the coach wondering if I could make it through the day without any help. I was so tired I fell asleep again, deciding that worry could wait until I woke.
When I did wake up I was extremely anxious. I made sure I had the cordless phone with me where ever I went in case an of emergency. Most of that first day alone was spent on my couch praying for God to watch over me and my kids, watching TV, and snoozing with one eye on the clock. I wanted to welcome my children home with a smile so big that they could see it from the bus.
Jumping off the bus I saw in their beautiful eyes relief when they realized I was OK. They ran to me and gave me their usual exuberant hug, almost knocking me over. We exchanged stories of our day and excitedly went to work on their homework. We made dinner for four (Asab, Courtney, myself and Aunt Glory) without even considering if she wanted to eat at our house. She was part of our immediate family NOW. Thank you God for my wonderful sister Glory! Thank you for being with me back then and now!
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
I am blessed
Merrym Dawn Mathis Bruce
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