And God Bless Us Everyone!

So, I told Mer I felt the need to write about this period of time in her story. The thing is I wasn't present during any of it. I couldn't be, which has brought guilt into my heart.

I was divorced at the time and had to provide for myself and the kids when they were with me. I'm pretty sure, thinking back, that I was a personal nanny at the time and didn't get benefits or time off. If I left my job I most likely would have been replaced in the blink of an eye. I knew that Mom, Glory, Ann and Karen could and would handle the situation the best way possible. Mer and I kept in touch by phone almost daily, (remember this was before the average Joe could afford a cell phone). My hopes, prayers and thoughts were on Merrym every moment I wasn't busy and usually on her when I was busy, too. Mer as usual was such an emotional strong arm, that she seemed to be more of a support for the rest of us, than we were for her. I remember calling her after the amputation and speaking with the drug induced, garbled up Mer. She was chipper and as silly as ever.

One day when she had signed back into lucidity and had a short amount of physical therapy, she told me that God had a new assignment for her. "Tell me about it Mer" I responded. "So, there's this older gentleman in the physical therapy unit that has also just lost his leg" she told me in a peppy chant. "He seems to be depressed and in big time need of some extra encouragement when he's doing therapy," I nodded at her. "I'm going to be his cheerleader!" she announced. "God wants him to know, that if I can get through all the crud I've had to deal with, that he most certainly can too!" She beamed like the man on the moon. My sister! What a woman! What a human being!

Oh and Glory's right, our family is far from perfect! We have miles to go! Issues! Issues! Issues! We all have them. Mix those with the stress of each situation we've been through with Mer and you get Trouble! Trouble I say! Right here in Ogden Utah! We boil over once in a while. It's just sad when we take our frustrations out on the wrong people. But then again we are human.

I hope that each and every one of you reading this blog right now, would stop and say a prayer for our family as a whole. We definitely need it. It's been a long, rocky, hard, on going road for us all. Thank you! And God bless us everyone!

This verse is one we all need real work on!
Do everything without complaining or arguing.
Philippians 2:14

Love You Mer