Let me explain; Hammerheads are strange looking, swim in schools that circle and manipulate their prey.
This man was definitely odd in appearance. He had a shiny, bald, oblong shaped head with glasses that would be considered old-timey spectacles; a tall, yet scrawny build without no bedside manner and; a extremely uncharismatic personality. He reminded me of Igor in the Frankenstein movies.
When my family and I discussed my amputation and the point where my leg was to be taken off, we all agreed the best thing would be to remove it right above the huge open wound that was the site of the infection. This was approximately four inches above the knee. I could not let my fear take over. So in a very a cut and dry state of mind I watched my hand mechanically sign the papers pertaining to that fact. I did this with the emotional support of Glory, Ace and Court. As I was wheeled to surgery I was trying to feel confident that all was kosher.
As my gurney reached the door of the operating room, the surgeon and his staff flowed forth circling my bed like a school of those Hammerhead sharks. When I was surrounded by these individuals, the doctor went to work manipulating his drug induced, groggy prey (Me). He said, "Merrym, I know we agreed on taking your leg above the infection, but I don't think that's a good idea. When I do amputations, it is always below the knee. I'm not letting you enter this operating room, let alone making a cut of any kind, unless you sign a new consent form that gives me permission to do so." Then he nonchalantly handed me a clipboard and a pen, while the rest of the 'Sharks' stared me down.
All kinds of thoughts ran through my mind, but ultimately my choice at that point was made for me. I knew that my trust was in God, not the man before me, so I grabbed the form and signed it...
Trust in the Lord when he says, 'The Lord will surely deliver us;"
2 Kings 18:30 b
I am blessed
Merrym Dawn Mathis Bruce
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